Day 13

you swear that i care about everything but you but unreality its the opposite, I’m the one hitting you up all day, I’m the one going out of my way to go see you, I’m the pouring my heart out everyday for you to just tell me how things will never be better, WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME, why are you telling me you love me, and miss me, and want to see me and then THREE days before ill be up there you shoot down every hope i have of us ever being together. why? you hold grudges, and even after everything you’ve done to me, I STILL LOVE YOU WITH EVERY BIT OF MY HEART. 

i guess thats the difference between us, you do something to me and i let it go because i consider our relationship as a whole, and whether or not letting go of something this beautiful and real would be worth it, and i try to make myself better so you wouldn’t have a reason to do it again.. but you break up with me and i make a mistake, and I’m dead to you. 

and even after all that, my heart still belongs to you. 

45 days.

1116 hours.

66980 minutes. 

♥