this is my last post to you. because in all honesty you don’t deserve anymore. 

i loved you.

i gave you everything

every part of me was yours.

and you hurt me, you broke me down.

you made me weak.

and now i need to look out for me.

i love you entirely, but somethings gotta give.

31 days..

you swear that i care about everything but you but unreality its the opposite, I’m the one hitting you up all day, I’m the one going out of my way to go see you, I’m the pouring my heart out everyday for you to just tell me how things will never be better, WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME, why are you telling me you love me, and miss me, and want to see me and then THREE days before ill be up there you shoot down every hope i have of us ever being together. why? you hold grudges, and even after everything you’ve done to me, I STILL LOVE YOU WITH EVERY BIT OF MY HEART. 

i guess thats the difference between us, you do something to me and i let it go because i consider our relationship as a whole, and whether or not letting go of something this beautiful and real would be worth it, and i try to make myself better so you wouldn’t have a reason to do it again.. but you break up with me and i make a mistake, and I’m dead to you. 

and even after all that, my heart still belongs to you. 

45 days.

1116 hours.

66980 minutes. 

♥

i really don’t understand why things switch so quickly, it can go from perfect to disastrous in a second, but i guess thats what life is about, taking things learning from them and moving on with life, it keeps us humble, it keeps us real.

46 days,

1127 hours 

67673 minutes.

♥

I cant wait to see you! Im already getting things ready for my little trip! Im so excited. You mean the world to me and soon ill be right next to you!! Im counting down the minutes :-*

48 days.

1152 hours.

69015 minutes. 

I’m waiting for you to come back to me ♥

today its starting to get a little harder. i won’t be able to talk to you as much. and not seeing you is already to much.

i can’t do this without you.

50 days .

1204 hours .

72288 minutes..

and I’m yours ♥

all i wanna do is love you.

please just let me.

51 days.

1224 hours.

73459 minutes. 

you know I’m yours. ♥

you always make my night.

papi you’re my everything

i can’t wait for these two weeks to fly by and for me to be in your arms again.

i miss you so much,

I’m yours  ♥  

i woke up to your text, but its nothing like waking up to your kisses. i miss laying in bed with you for hours every sunday. i miss cuddling with you and falling back asleep in your arms. i stay up for hours every night because i can’t fall asleep without feeling you next to me. you’re the cause of my insomnia, but truth is id rather stay up for hours, than fall asleep without you by my side. 

im eagerly waiting for your return.

please don’t forget me…

52 days. 

1258 hours.

75512 minutes. 

 ♥ 

at this point i don’t even know whats going on. everyday is a different story, and right now i can’t keep up. 

what we had, was so beautiful.

id do anything to get it back..

53 days.

1275 hours.

76522 minutes. 

and I’m yours. ♥

even if you don’t want me..

in all honesty all i wanted to do this summer,

was chill in the woods at f&w for ten weeks,

and somehow it didn’t happen,

but now you’re there and I’m here.

and i feel like i can’t go now.

this sucks.

life sucks.

i need a drink.

it started so well, and ended like this.

come on man. 

i love you, 

accept it or tell me otherwise.

still counting down the days tho.

54 days.

1298 hours

77885 minutes.

to be exact. 

Spent today wanting to cry every other minute because you’re all i can think about and you’re so far away. Rushed home just so we can Skype i wanna spend every minute talking to you , its bad, you’ve spoiled me, I’m so used to you being right beside me and i know this distance is good for us right now but it still sucks. i miss you terribly. 

55 days.

1322 hours.

79356 minutes

and I’m yours. ♥

woke up missing you terribly, but for some reason today i woke up with a different feeling altogether, now i just feel that everything will be okay, time heals all wounds and good things come to those who wait, and baby id wait years for you to come back, and when you do, I’m yours, I’m going to love you the same, if not more. you’ve taught me so much about loving someone else and loving myself and now i have to put those things to work, I’m fixing myself, I’m becoming better, for us. 

56 days.

1361 hours.

81701 minutes.

and I’m yours ♥